2 weeks off...
i've had 2 weeks off from snooker, call it my pre season if you will, and i'm sick of not playing snooker, i love it to much, and i think the break has done me good, it must have, cause i'm fired up for playing tomorrow.
I think i've sorted my head out, i've been through some philosophies and i've decided that, fuck it, i'm not going to get as far as i want in snooker. my mate can be happy as larry for beating me, despite playing shit, he can sleep comfortably knowing he's played and won, whereas i can't sleep well knowing i've played bad and won, let alone lost.
So i've discovered that you have to beat whats infront of you, no matter what level, it's the same in football. I'm a forest fan and it's all well and good complaining your up against Blackpool or Bristol at home but you've gotta beat em, and simply drawing or losing to em (as we have this season) isn't good enough.
this compares to my snooker. it's all well and good feeling your better than someone, but if you don't beat them, then to put it simply, your not.
so i've got to keep my aims low. you walk out that club tomorrow with a win and your a winner, no one can take that from you, you've won. i've lost my last 4 matches and you aint jack shit if you cant win the next few games. sure i tend to give up after a few bad frames, and your a quitter, unless you can dig deep and do yourself, or others, proud by over coming the odds and winning.
my mental state has been bad the past few weeks, in all things going, uni, snooker and football. if i'm not doing as well as i know i can, then i give up, it's not going to happen.i THIS IS A SHITE ATTITUDE and i need to sort it, dick head.
it's affecting my game, on and off the table. i know in my head that if i'm not playing good snooker (or football) then my whole attitude stinks, even to life. i think i'm potentially at a bad time, but bollocks cause i'm having a good time and , well fuck it!
i'll keep learning at snooker, i need to, cause i can be a contender, i can be the champion of the world.
if i want